Nothing Left At All

(专辑： A Beautiful Disaster - 2020)

Stayed up late patiently waiting
Wishing you could call
Dreaming of memories lost in time
Knowing they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
Till there's nothing left at all

Four in the morning I cannot sleep
I am depressed sitting up in my bed
The demons are roaring they're bothering me
I'm sitting here with a gun to my head
Finger on trigger, what if I squeezed?
Does that mean that my problems will leave?
Get rid of what's bothering me?
Does that mean that I'm finally free
I think of my daughter I think of my wife
I think of my brothers I think of my life
I can't leave them with bad news
My life is a crap-shoot
I'm just shaking the dice
Had a dream last night (Had a dream last night)
I can hear you say (I can hear you say)
Son just be strong (Son just be strong)
You gon' be okay (You gon' be okay)
Tell the truth, I don't feel that way
I still feel fucked up to this day
Even when I'm high I just sit and cry
And wonder why I still feel this pain
I wish Heaven wasn't so far away
I wish I could visit just for a day
I still had so much left to say
Bow our heads and let us pray

Stayed up late patiently waiting
Wishing you could call
Dreaming of memories lost in time
Knowing they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
Till there's nothing left at all

I feel like my past will allow me to grow
Feel like this liquor is drowning my soul
Why am I spiraling out of control?
I cannot get myself out of this hole
I keep trying, I keep crawling
The sound of silence, I hear it calling
I was flying, now I'm falling
My health declining, I'm an alcoholic
There's no one else, it's just myself
Alone in thought, I stand and dwell
I'm the go-to guy, so who do I
So who do I go to when I need some help?
No one gives a fuck about me, I'm on my own
If misery loves company then why am I alone?
I pour another drink just to get in my zone
I swear that I'ma change, but I know that I won't
Let me face the facts (Face the facts)
Wish I could take it back (Take it back)
Wish I could fade to black (Fade to black)
Wish I could change the past (Change the past)
But in my mind I wish that I could rewind
Press pause and live my life inside a moment of time
But I can't

Stayed up late patiently waiting
Wishing you could call
Dreaming of memories lost in time
Knowing they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
Till there's nothing left at all